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Day 3

May7

Today’s weigh-in: 149.8 (BMI 26.5)
(Told you little flucutations just happen for me, so yesterday’s didn’t mean anything!)

I added one final sugar water (2T, dissovled in 12oz water — at least I think that’s the size of my mug!), late last night, and again, experienced very strong positive feelings of physical/mental wellness. This morning, I’m ready for breakfast, but I’m unsure whether that’s by rote/habit or because I’m truly hungry.

8-ish: Breakfast
10am: Last coffee
11:30am: 2T sucrose in 20oz water (sipped, not chugged — finally).
2:00pm: Lunch
3:45pm: Finished coffee after lunch
5pm: 2T sucrose in 20oz water.
6:30pm: Dinner
9:00pm: 1.5T canola

The canola is NOT bothering my stomach this time. While I don’t feel the euphoria like from the sugar water (which is also lessened today, btw), I don’t feel bad either, and I have no evening munchies at all. None. Late evening/night is a red-alert time for me usually, so this is really encouraging.

My food choices continue to be much more healthful, in part because I’m not fighting (unhealthy) cravings in order to make good decisions. On top of that, I’m actively craving “good” food, especially fruits and vegetables. On the way to dinner tonight, I found myself looking forward to the crunch celery in my Pad Thai Puck (PT w/ bunches of veggies). Celery? Whaaaa? Dude…I like celery fine, but looking forward to it? It baffles.

One poster on the SLD boards suggested that more healthy cravings are part of the body’s (being tricked into) believing that a famine cycle is beginning. If you’re not going to have much to eat, you’d better be darned sure that the calories you *do* consume are packed with nutrients.

Now that I think about it, I ate absolutely no meat today. Some egg, yes…but no meat. This wasn’t intentional, but frankly, it’s good. I know enough about how my body processes food to know that I’d do well as a vegetarian. No plans to become veggie just yet, but I do like the idea of eating with meat as a condiment rather than a main course. Overall, I’m very hopeful that this will be a simple and inexpensive way to get myself back into the eating habits I know work well for me.

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One Comment to

“Day 3”

  1. Avatar May 12th, 2006 at 7:56 am Joyful Says:

    Hi Allison,
    I’m over on the SLD board and you have given me encouragement in my updates….I thank you for that. I love to read your updates…I can sooo relate to the things you say! Especially when you find yourself thinking differently about food and then you do a double-take in your own mind toward your own thoughts….”Whaaa…?!” lol. I have had several of those on SLD. Looking forward to reading more!
 
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Allison
Los Alamos, NM
After a childhood of immersion in my family's religious tradition, I hit college and my first true experience with the question, "why?" Why did I believe as I did? If I thought about it, I had no idea. So, I spent the next ten years not thinking about it.

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Once I hit 30, I began asking myself that question all over again. A few years later, I woke one day to realize that I simply didn't believe. For many reasons, I am a much happier (and more emotionally healthy) person having let go of god. There are still days that I wish god did exist. It would be a relief to relinquish responsibility to a greater power.

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But, even better, I can see life for what it is, and work with reality. That's more powerful than any god could hope to be.