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Three-five. Seven-seventeen-seventy-one.

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Why is it that 30 felt like nothing — no different, no older, nada — but 35 feels so momentous? Beats the hell outta me.

My birthday wish is that, if you’re lurking, you delurk for a minute and tell me who you are, how you got here, and why you stop by. Yes, you heard me. For my birthday, I’m playing comment whore.

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7 Comments to

“Three-five. Seven-seventeen-seventy-one.”

  1. Avatar July 18th, 2006 at 12:06 am ninjanun Says:

    Oh my god, you didn’t tell me it was your birthday!!!

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

    I come here because I like your writing style, you have good thoughts, and I think you and Maya are the cutest!

    Your honestly and no-bullshit attitude are also immensely refreshing. In a world of blogs dedicated to self-righteous fundamentalist puppy dogs, your blog is a refreshing oasis of girl power and self-effacing humor.
  2. Avatar July 18th, 2006 at 9:00 am Larc Says:

    It’s because now you’re closer to 40 (wry grin from someone who will be 41 in November). 40 wasn’t bad, but I have a feeling 41 will be, because I’ll be officially “in” my 40′s. It helps to have the rugrats around, though, they keep us young!
  3. Avatar July 18th, 2006 at 4:34 pm Hugo Says:

    Happy belated b-day! Yay for the second half of the thirties… I’m ten months from forty, and never been happier…
  4. Avatar July 18th, 2006 at 5:09 pm Mike Says:

    You know why I’m here of course…for the free beer that I can’t drink because of my medication. You can hoist it for me vicariously. I have 11 more months until I hit five zero and I am looking forward to it with glee and fascination. Isn’t 50 the new 35?

    Mike
  5. Avatar July 19th, 2006 at 7:03 am Amanda Says:

    Hey, hope it was a great birthday – sorry I’m a few days behind everyone else. I got here through Maya’s site, and I found that…well…I don’t remember. I think through a friend of yours who also blogs, but that was a while ago and I don’t remember now.

    I stop by for interesting perspective and gut-level honesty.
  6. Avatar July 19th, 2006 at 10:43 am Sage Says:

    Happy Birthday!!

    My life changed dramatically at 35 because I finally met a guy I love AND respect. About time! I feel younger than ever.

    I come here for the perspective and writing.
  7. Avatar July 20th, 2006 at 3:04 pm twoboysmom Says:

    Happy Belated Birthday! I found you through Mike. I love your absolute honesty. You rock!
 
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Allison
Los Alamos, NM
After a childhood of immersion in my family's religious tradition, I hit college and my first true experience with the question, "why?" Why did I believe as I did? If I thought about it, I had no idea. So, I spent the next ten years not thinking about it.

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Once I hit 30, I began asking myself that question all over again. A few years later, I woke one day to realize that I simply didn't believe. For many reasons, I am a much happier (and more emotionally healthy) person having let go of god. There are still days that I wish god did exist. It would be a relief to relinquish responsibility to a greater power.

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But, even better, I can see life for what it is, and work with reality. That's more powerful than any god could hope to be.