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Bad Mommy

August8

How sad is this? I’m sort of looking forward to this second date this evening. (Yeah, I know. Don’t get excited or anything.)

But much, much, MUCH moreso? I’m looking forward to an evening minus a nearly-two, screaming her head off, mad because she doesn’t get what she wants, teething, pissy toddler who’s normally a sweet, funny angel. Who IS this child?

Please tell me this is about the teeth and is temporary.

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6 Comments to

“Bad Mommy”

  1. Avatar August 8th, 2006 at 9:53 pm Alison Says:

    Hope you are having a great date…or at least a good few hours of respite from the wrath of toddlerhood!

    Can’t wait for the update.


  2. Avatar August 8th, 2006 at 11:47 pm Allison Says:

    Eh, enjoyed myself, but it was more about some time away.

    He was WAY into me (admitted as much, even). I’m still just not feeling it, even though I’d like to. No sparks.

    Third person to meet on this match go-round, and I’m already tired of it. Bah humbug. I’d rather just have friends. They’re much less complicated.


  3. Avatar August 8th, 2006 at 11:49 pm Allison Says:

    Oh, and I should also say…Maya? Turned into a complete angel as soon as we left the house. She’s ALWAYS the perfect child when she’s at her grandparents’ house. Always.


  4. Avatar August 9th, 2006 at 6:31 am Larc Says:

    Isn’t that the truth! Here’s hoping teething is done soon (Baby Motrin is a good thing). The wanting her way thing, though, I believe is referred to as those “terrible twos”. But they do so many fun, sweet things to make up for it!


  5. Avatar August 9th, 2006 at 9:45 pm dorsey Says:

    Baby Motrin runs a far distant second to baby tequila shots.

    [/baddaddy]


  6. Avatar August 10th, 2006 at 12:25 pm Rachel Sarah Says:

    Allison, Love it! It’s great to see other confident, go-getting single moms out there. Here’s to you!
    Rachel


 
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Allison
Los Alamos, NM
After a childhood of immersion in my family's religious tradition, I hit college and my first true experience with the question, "why?" Why did I believe as I did? If I thought about it, I had no idea. So, I spent the next ten years not thinking about it.

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Once I hit 30, I began asking myself that question all over again. A few years later, I woke one day to realize that I simply didn't believe. For many reasons, I am a much happier (and more emotionally healthy) person having let go of god. There are still days that I wish god did exist. It would be a relief to relinquish responsibility to a greater power.

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But, even better, I can see life for what it is, and work with reality. That's more powerful than any god could hope to be.