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it is what it is

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February28

It’s time to start writing again. When I start doing three-part updates on Facebook, that just might mean that a blog post would be a better use of my thoughts, no?

I’ve missed this.

Grad school deferral.

January30

This stinks. I keep questioning whether it’s the right thing to do, then I realize that yes, it is.

Since I recently completed (okay, read, if not wrote about) the section on social psychology, I’m uber-aware of any tendencies toward self-serving bias. The reasons behind my delaying grad school for a year or so are both within the realm of personal (my fault) and external (circumstantial). The personal issues (major P-ness, perfectionism, etc — to blog about at length later) will still exist whenever I do a program. At least by waiting a bit, I’ll rid myself of some of the external issues (baby clinging at me and refusing to sleep unless held, lack of face-time with real, honest-to-goodness humans), and that will make the personal baggage easier to handle.

Grad school will recommence in a year or so, once Gavin is in some sort of childcare. Until then, I’ll sporadically write and — I hope — keep the critical thinking skills I’ve developed from getting rusty.

Yes, I will.

October30

Write about things other than politics, that is.

Pardon all the hyper-focus. It’s only for a few more days, and then I’ll get back into things that are so much more important, like the minutae of my day-to-day life.

Gone out for sushi.

June15

Thanks, all, for the encouragements about my own personal growth and my marriage. It’s a challenge — the marriage, that is — and honestly, it’s better at 6-1/2 months than I probably could have even expected. Maybe we’re just stacking the getting-to-know-one-another with the horrific-first-year?

I’m heading out of town for a bit to grab a bite of sushi. In Japan.

Well, really, Mike has business that takes him first to the small town of Misawa, then later to Tokyo. It’s 10:11pm, and in order to get to the airport in time to check my baggage for a 6:05am flight, I have to leave here no later than 3:30am. Ah, joy. I plan to keep myself up for a good while now, and then tank out on the long flight from Houston to Tokyo.

Oddly, this trip might (but I’m not promising) give me more of an opportunity to write. Mike’s working, but my agenda is semi-empty, at least the first week, since I haven’t found much to do in Misawa yet. I’ve been reading Parenting Beyond Belief as I’ve had time and hit the mood for deeper thoughts, and really do plan to scribble some of said thoughts down some day. Otherwise, I have a couple Jodi Picoult novels (thanks, Joy, for the loan!), some mystery/thriller brain candy, and the recent release of Carl Sagan essays.

Have a great couple of days, everyone, and I’ll be in touch!

messiness

January25

I’ve imported posts from Oh, for the love of God… to here — so there’s a little disarray that I expect to continue for a time as I remove/rename categories and whatnot.

Thanks to Fred for the link to the Wordpress-to-Wordpress import/export plugin. Once I deleted the *thousands* of akismet comment spam, my file size was small enough to import old posts, categories, and comments quickly! Woo-hoo!

new page

January19

In case you hadn’t noticed…there’s a new page up above. From time to time, as I continue to settle into the new digs, I’ll be adding pages, so keep your eyes open.

Photos not displaying

January4

My photos don’t seem to display properly in a post. *sigh* I went through this when I first used K2 on FTLOG, and fixed it — but can’t remember for the life of me what I changed!

***ah-ha! it’s a firefox issue — they show in IE. now what?***

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Allison
Los Alamos, NM
After a childhood of immersion in my family's religious tradition, I hit college and my first true experience with the question, "why?" Why did I believe as I did? If I thought about it, I had no idea. So, I spent the next ten years not thinking about it.

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Once I hit 30, I began asking myself that question all over again. A few years later, I woke one day to realize that I simply didn't believe. For many reasons, I am a much happier (and more emotionally healthy) person having let go of god. There are still days that I wish god did exist. It would be a relief to relinquish responsibility to a greater power.

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But, even better, I can see life for what it is, and work with reality. That's more powerful than any god could hope to be.

Allison...



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